ABOUT
The Fidgety Meditator
My LinkedIn profile will tell you I’m an Eternal Artist, Mindfulness Meditation Teacher & Speaker, Co-Owner of Vallefuoco Contractors, Board Member,National Tile Contractors Association , and Founder of Disability Inclusion Guild®. What it doesn’t tell you is that I’m also an innate overthinker, fidgety meditator, and a science geek. We all carry titles and labels, but they don’t reveal who we really are or how we contribute to those who pass through our lives. My tiny contribution is to make our planet a happier place by sharing mental fitness practices around it. My intention is to empower fellow humans to minimize the suffering in our heads. l use research-based neuroscience, mindfulness, and psychology principles, speaking regularly to private companies and in crisis intervention programs. I get to witness how mindfulness practices enhance human connection, resilience, community-building, and even company loyalty. I’ve spent 25 years in construction, and the last seven teaching mindfulness and self compassion to unsuspecting humans in diverse industries throughout the country.
Much of life happens as a non linear path. Mine includes living in 2 hemispheres, 3 continents, 4 countries, and following my heart across them all. My childhood was spent on South African and American soil. I later lived in Spain, and double majored in psychology and Spanish. My degree prepared me for the obvious next step; going to study figurative oil painting in Italy. I accidentally met an Italian artisan, learned Italian and ruined my Spanish, got accepted to the Art Institute of Chicago, dragged the Italian to the USA, got some surprising news, thwarted the Chicago dream to start a family in MD, launched a tile and marble company, and now I travel the globe teaching mindfulness. While I’m not writing run-on sentences, I’m creating mental fitness programs. I have a passion for articulating the art and science of thriving, using less acronyms than a scientist. I hold years of experience speaking on compassionate leadership and creative mindset. I work regularly with intimidating executive teams who somehow always turn out to be human. When leadership is authentic, it impacts the entire workforce! I speak in the private sector, to first responders, to government agencies, and most often, in my own head. I use a range of scientific frameworks to keep it credible, relatable, and hopefully fun.
As a lifelong nerd, I’ve always been fascinated by the neuroscience of contemplative practices and how science and spirituality converge. I still love learning, despite my aging brain. My post graduate studies include diverse ideologies and scientific disciplines. I completed my two year curriculum through UC Berkeley’s Awareness Training Institute and Greater Good Science Center with Tara Brach and Jack Kornfield, becoming an MMTCP certified mindfulness instructor. I received a 6-part certification in Interpersonal Neurobiology through UCLA’s Mindsight Institute with Dr. Dan Siegel, and completed coursework in mindful leadership through SIYLI, originally born at Google and based on neuroscience. I completed the Intensive Mindful Self-Compassion training through the Center for Mindful Self Compassion with Dr. Chris Germer and Dr. Kristin Neff. Oh, and I’m a 200RYT Yoga Instructor, because why not!
My client base spans communities across the globe, including the workforce in law enforcement, construction, child and family services, the child judicial court system, as well as psychotherapists, corporate legal teams, non-profits, public and private schools and universities, trade associations, private companies of all sizes, the disability community, and retreat centers. Basically, I work with diverse groups of people. My events are known to evoke all kinds of tears; often cathartic ones, and sometimes those from belly-aching laughter. My method for bringing a lightheartedness to common human struggles is based on lessons from my own most imperfect moments, of which there are many. I gently weave creative mindset, art, entrepreneurship, spirituality, and science into my work. My own passion project is Disability Inclusion Guild®; a 501(c)3 dedicated to breaking social barriers for people with disabilities, which I founded after the birth of my amazing nephew. I believe a conscious intention and self-compassion are the key to thriving. We are all worthy of thriving!
“To create anything, we must be intentional. Intention steers us from the heart & saves us from the ego.”
Gianna Vallefuoco
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“I write all day long, mostly in my head, often in my journal. Sometimes I’m courageous enough to type my thoughts, which is probably what you’re reading. I write about mindfulness, neuroscience, construction, and how to be really good at being human. I’ve been one for over fifty years.
I’m an accidental public speaker, sharing mental fitness practices with diverse humans across the globe. Speaking and writing and overthinking are my passion.
More info about what goes on in my head (and probably yours), and the art and science of mindfulness can be found here.”
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WHY CAN’T I MEDITATE?
The Most Asked Question
As a meditation teacher, I hear it a lot. Usually I’m the one asking. “Why can’t I meditate?” I ask me. Here’s an answer; because I am alive. Also because this feels unnatural. The good news is thinking while meditating is still meditating! Brains think, so most of us with brains find meditation challenging. Many more of us have never even tried it because it seems kind of absurd. The common myth is that it takes up precious time in our overfilled days to try to suppress our overworking minds and do nothing but struggle! Several non meditators have expressed to me that meditation looks like “pointless suffering.” I have news for them, it sometimes feels even worse than it looks! But it is quite the opposite of pointless suffering. It has a point, and that point is found in the “suffering.” In fact, meditation is what teaches us how to suffer less in life. The suffering, in meditation and in life, is based on resistance to what’s happening. In meditation, the suffering comes from the misconception that meditation is supposed to be an effortless stillness. When we resist having thoughts, that resistance feels highly effortful. This is because meditation is not about the effort of resisting thoughts. It is about the effortlessness of allowing stillness, or letting the stillness arise between all the distractions. This comes with practice. Meditation is not the absence of thoughts. It is simply a gentle training of our attention toward one thing. It can be done walking, lying down, listening to music, or really doing anything where our awareness or attention is focused on an anchor. Each time we get distracted, we notice it, and return to the anchor.
The Process
The anchor, or single focus, does not mean having no other thoughts or innately knowing how to enter a deep focused state. That would indeed seem difficult for any of us who are not silent monks living in the mountains. Meditation is simply this deliberate practicing of noticing what we’re noticing. It benefits all who practice, especially the most fidgety overthinkers like myself. For those of us who live amidst real life stressors like thoughts, emotions, other humans, and life’s expectations, then sitting still without our thoughts is indeed impossible. Fortunately, meditation does not require the absence of thoughts or actually any goal at all. Instead, it is based on the act of practicing. This is a big ask in a culture that often strives for an end game of perfection.
Meditation values process over outcome. It is about becoming the kind witness to your thoughts as they arise. Meditation is a practice to quiet the mind, not to suddenly enter a trance. In fact, to seasoned meditators, the “trance” is what is considered to be our warped perspective when we’re not present and connected to ourselves and others; a trance of separateness. When meditation becomes a regular practice, we learn how to move away from that separatist trance. We begin to know ourselves better, feel more compassionate and connected to others and nature, find a quieter mind, fewer thoughts, and even a calm mental state. These are natural consequences of regular meditation. This comes from practice. This is the gift behind the misconception of pointless suffering.
Curiosity
To meditate, we embrace curiosity, not judgement. We detach from outcome as best we can. We begin to observe the passing of our thoughts and emotions, so we are no longer trapped in the stories of the mind. We start to see that we are separate from the stories our minds create. We repeat this distancing process over and over. This is the practice. As we meditate, we intentionally train the brain to create a habit or reflex of a gentle single focus. The brain has the capacity to change in response to repeated experience. This ability is called neuroplasticity. The more we meditate, the more we are able to strengthen circuits in the brain to make meditation easier.
Witnessing Thoughts
In meditation we can choose an anchor, such as our breath, to be our single focus. Each time a thought arises, we can learn to release it and come back to the anchor. As we become more aware, we notice the thought arising, we can then name it, deeming it a “thought,” and releasing it. This is the ongoing process of quieting the mind, without judgement, with curiosity, and with compassion. Self compassion is an important quality of meditation. Go easy on yourself as you meditate, especially as you struggle to. The struggle is part of the process.
Remember; meditation is always a practice, and never a perfection. The most daunting meditation is often the first. The battle is to start. Once you’ve meditated even one time, you’ve begun the practice. You cannot fail at meditating. You can only fail to try.
Where To Begin
If you’re ready to start, try a meditation app like Insight Timer or Headspace or join me in this short video INTRO TO MEDITATION WITH BODY SCAN.
ARE WE USING COVID MASKS AS EMOTIONAL ARMOR?
How to Protect Ourselves From Fear and Anger in the Air
The new normal is full of new rituals to find relief. Removing a stiff pair of shoes after a long day at the office has been replaced with peeling off a mask after a weekly grocery run. Although most of us enjoy shedding our masks, they can offer a subtle emotional safeguard, a strange sense of anonymity and separateness.
Viral pathogens aren’t the only malady in the air. Many people are openly angry, rioting and yelling, some even publicly threatening the lives of others. It’s important to recognize that under most anger is a deep foundation of fear. To ensure we don’t inhale too much of the fear or the anger in the air, we need to find a dash of self-awareness and a hefty dose of compassion.
3 Tips for protecting yourself from anger :
- Pause before reacting
- Slow down your breath
- Focus on what unifies us as people
As a mindfulness teacher, stress reactions have always fascinated me. Many people may respond irrationally when threatened, especially if given a wall of protection. Consider road rage or unexpectedly hateful online posts. The shield of our vehicles or the virtual barrier of our social media pages becomes our safety net, allowing an audacity and disrespect that’s much less likely when face to face. This ruthlessness behind a shield is exacerbated when we’re afraid. Right now we’re terrified! For our health, our livelihoods, and our sense of control. Amidst this new uncertainty, even masks, while biologically protective, can add an extra layer of separateness.
Last week, while choosing mushrooms at the grocery store, I noticed a woman staring at me from several feet behind. She said nothing at first. Her face was masked like mine, but her eyes were enough to reveal her palpable rage. She began shouting at me angrily, “You crazy!” Before I could determine whether that was a question or a diagnosis, she got louder, mixing foreign and English words. The English was all expletives, mostly starting with f. I had no idea what I’d done to merit this woman’s outrage, as I was well beyond six feet from her. She then gestured toward a grocery cart, full of bananas, in front of me. I gently stepped aside, dumbfounded. She abruptly grabbed the cart and started shaking it, screaming harshly in her native tongue. Her words were hidden by her mask and her language, but her anger was conspicuous and sadly contagious. As she whisked away her cart, she left me with the burden of all her fury. I had now taken on her rage and my reflex was to rightfully carry it onward as my own.
Pause before Reacting
As I tried to make sense of what just transpired, her rage was now brewing within me. I noticed my heart pounding, ready to explode. My instinct was to use my adrenaline rush to chase down the banana hoarder, tackle her, and publicly declare my innocence and her wrongful attack on me. Fortunately, my mindfulness training had taught me to breathe first and react later. I took a moment to pause and reset.
Breathe
All I needed was time to find my breath, control it, and bring down my heart rate. It is near impossible to use the mind to control the mind. This is why saying “calm down” to a triggered person is so absurd and unnerving. Yet, we can use the body to control and reset our mind states. Exhale-oriented breath is the means for doing so. Extending exhales longer than inhales is the quickest way to bring the nervous system from “fight or flight” (survival) mode into “rest and digest” (thriving) mode. In my moment of being triggered in the grocery store, I instinctively began a practice I learned a decade ago in yoga, called three part breath. I followed my breath through three stages, my chest, ribs, and belly. There I stood in the organic produce aisle, eyes shut and hands on my torso, gently and loudly inhaling and then exhaling as long as I could. My favorite book on breath, Breathe To Succeed by Sandy Abrams, taught me to find my breath on command, anywhere and anytime I feel a stress trigger in my body. So I did, and with my breath, I slowly found my humanity.
Channel compassion, empathy, and gratitude
Before I took that pause, I was in the midst of an unraveling story in my head. I was an undeserving victim of an evil stranger’s outburst. Yet, after three minutes of slow breathing, I became a mere observer of my own narrative. I found perspective. I found compassion. I saw that this woman was scared, like me, and like many of us right now. Perhaps scared of getting infected by me and infecting someone she loves, someone for whom she’s baking banana bread, perhaps with chocolate chips.
I felt this stranger’s anguish, until she was no longer a stranger. She was a fellow human, just like me. A scared and similar human. I remembered what it was like to live in another country, and struggle with the language. I considered my life in Italy, before I’d learned Italian. Simple tasks like grocery shopping were truly intimidating with the language barrier. I, like her, had learned all the curse words first. I giggled to myself, noticing how predictable we humans are. We can get so deeply buried in our own stories, we fail to notice our behavior and how it may affect others. We are all others sometimes.
I wasn’t angry or scared anymore. I no longer felt wronged. I didn’t need to defend myself. And so, in that moment, I liked me. I was grateful for my pause, my breath, and for finding the space for kindness. I saw the kindness in me. I was grateful for my delayed reaction. I was grateful also for the food I was going to buy for my family and me. I was even grateful for this woman. She reminded me of my own connection to others. We all have similar instincts when threatened. The absurdity of being triggered humans.
We are all in this together. The fear and anger in the air doesn’t have to infect us. When we control our breath, we expand our reaction time. In that expanded space, we can repel the hate, and be our highest, kindest, greatest selves. The selves that we ourselves can like. We can wear our masks to separate us from pathogens, but not from human connection. We humans are interconnected, and we thrive when we feel that connection.
WHERE’S THE RIGHT PLACE TO MEDITATE?
WHERE’S THE RIGHT PLACE TO MEDITATE?
Make a bucket list, and start your journey. One of the most beautiful meditation spaces I’ve experienced is on a lavender farm in Maui, HI.